My Lullaby

I'm yearning for love..

This feel like my heart is burning. 

Is my cry loud enough? Or am I crying at all?
Can you hear? Or are  you covering your ears.

No one understands..

Always trying to lend me a hand..

I'm defeating the purpose..

When I take your help, I fall again.

It's like your holding up a wall.

"NO!" My heart screams.

But I ignore it, thinking it's just one of my silly dreams.

I can't find the answer.

"IS THIS ALL A LIE?"

It's making my heart slowly die...

I cant ignore it any longer.

I feel my heart getting stronger..

This is my deepest
Lullaby
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Te amo♥

Sunday, April 23, 2010 was sooo different..
He came by..
They didn't do anything while he was there...
lol she's to shy, he claims... and she admit!!

=]]]
Hugging, such a long timeee.. he started rocking her back and fourth, She dont think he wanted to let goo.
At least it wasnt still burning hot outside...

lol and she never kneww she had to stand on my tippy toes to kiss him properly!!!
lol he kept kissing her on her upper lip..

The last kiss was right. perfect!♥
Lol and she told me
that she loves him..!! =]]]

Where I wanna be (The girl version)

He should of left me a message


Sayin' he won't be coming home

He'd rather be alone

I don't fully understand him
'That he'd rather leave than to cheat

If I give him some time

He can be the man I need

But there's a lot of lust inside of me

And we've been together since our teenage years

He really don't mean to hurt me, but he need some time

To be alone

But when you love someone


You just don't treat them bad

Oh, how I feel so sad

Now that he wanna leave

I'm crying my heart to him

How could he let this be?

He just need time to see

Where he wanna be

Where he wanna be...

=[

Ever since my uncle died.
I've been thinking about death alot.
Mann, this isn't cool. Like once I stop thinking about it, I'll come back home, and walk pass his room and start thinking about it.
Like I really, really miss my uncle. And That's the worst part. It's hard to adapt to this new life without him here everyday.
I wished we could just rewind it all back, and you didn't get sick that night. Get rushed out to the V.A hospital.
Mann. Every night I try to keep from crying. I was so mean to him. We argued all the time. But it was because we were so much alike.
I was his favorite niece I know for a fact. He used to always call me his "Road Dog." and I miss that.
When I was small. He'll take me everywhere with him.
To his girlfriend's house, she'll give me toys.
He'll walk me to school.
Take me to Kitts.
He even taught me how to ride a bike when I was only two.
He was more like more like my dad.
And I miss him, My uncle "Poppa."
And it's so hard to say goodbye,,
But I'm not saying goodbye because I know he's still with me in my memories...

Happiee Mommie's dayy! XD

Happiee Mommies dayy, mommie!! lol
Every year I buy you a card. and a CD or something.
But this year I didn't have any money. Or no transporation to the store.
Lol so I made you breakfast (That you didnt even eat) Lol.
We should take some pics together on this beloved day that is for you. But everyday is for you.
You slave over the stove..
You kiss my owies.
You tuck me in at night.
And you give me a kiss on the cheek before I sleep, and before I go to school.
Thankyou for taking me in.
And being my mommy!
I will always love you! =D

I Wish♥

I wish..

I wish he can hold me..
and don't let go (until I tell him too)

I wish he could kiss me..
until I tell him to stop..

I wish I could say "Te quiero" (I love you) and really mean it.

I wish allot of stuff. Maybe I want/expect to much..
Or maybe this is a rush.
I wish I didn't make it such a fuss.

Miss you♥

Everytime I kiss you.
I start to miss you..

I wonder why?
Cause as everyday go by,
I have the same thought.
It's the feeling that I caught.

Idek.. But I justtt... uhmmmm..

idkkk >_>

Like you do♥

Nobody likes me enough to listen.
To my complaining, My wining, my problems.
Like you do.
It's sorta interesting, I wonder if you get tired of me.
But you don't show it. Or do you?


This is why I like you. Your like the bestfriend I never had.
Well, best guy friend.
But you actually listen, though you might not understand what I mean sometimes.

I like you because your there for me when I need you. But not all the time.

I can talk to you without getting annoyed from you like others do.

I like you because you respect me. Sometimes more than I respect myself.

I like you, because you like me.

And I will know, nobody knows me,

Like you do..

Growing Pains♥

Everything I do is wrong.
Make a friend.. (WRONG)
Make the honor roll (NOT GOOD ENOUGH)
Talk to a guy (TOTALLY WRONG)
Not talk at all (BIG MISTAKE BUDDY)
Be myself (UUHH NOOO WAY!)
Omgg.. Idekk anymore. Everyone always judging me, for what I do, okayy it's not easy maintaining a 3.0 or higher. High school is very stressing guys.. I came into high school thinking this is gonna be easy, maybe I had my eyes glued on my favorite show Degrassi to much. Probably expecting it to be like that. Now since I'm interested in boys. Well this one guy, it's wrong. ohkay i understand I'm too young to date or whatever. BLAH! blaahhh. BLLLLAAAH! goshhh. What? would you rather me to date girls, you know you want me to be around them and befriend them..? But when I suggest such a idea, you think I'm insane. Well SORRY! for being a teenager. At least I'm still a virgin. And i'm not planning to lose it anytime soon. gosh theres so much pressure. I dont understand.

Well, hey you made me this way.

Mending My Broken Heart

Why do it feel like my heart is bending
Instead of mending.

Maybe we don't have enough glue.
We need another clue.

The bandages are tightly stuck.
Or is this bad luck?

Wait.. I think this is great,,

It's kinda fixed.
Like those pile of bricks.


Yes this is my heart, Let's finish finding all the parts..

Amor♥

Is this an illusion?

Or am I falling into deep confusion?

I don't know how i feel.

But I wish my heart would heal.

It's sore. Because it was so open like a pore.

Good you cant hurt me anymore.

Maybe I need a pill. Or learn a new skill. Because this isnt good, or is it.

I think I'm in love, and I'm on this as tight as a winter glove.