Hiding my feelings

i hate the way i feel about you. its like i feel this shyness around you that i cant stand. i want to be outgoing snd stuff but im afraid youll think im changing to much. i honestly dont understand my own feelings and emotions. love is a odd feeling that is like a drug you know when its wromg but you keep trying and trying until it works out. but does it ever really work out..?

8mths

that's a longgggggg timee. i never imagine for it to last this long. I hope it last longer. I never took relationships seriously. Because boys never took me seriously. i guess i still had kooties. lol but seriously. this is the best one. and I hope i can make this work. because I think I'm falling.....

IN LOVE.!!

highschool sweetheart maybe???

School

Kinda confused..

I do wanna go backk..
Then again..
I don't..

But I can see him everyday.!
But that might be bad for my grades.!
I will get too focused on him. (Which I already am)
And I'll get to see my friends! (Connie and Rebecca)
But I'm a nerd, so I could never not get my work done, and stay organized...!
But going back to school can be good.
I'm a Sophmore now.
Haha. And I'm planning to stay on the honor every semester.
I almost did last year, but I missed the 3rd semester.
I still had a high GPA.
But aghhhH!
School kinda sucksss..
Goodbye sleep- in says
Good Morning NO sleep at all!
-_-

Gone

I feel like I'm fading..
Like day by day I grow older.
But I don't want too.
I want to stay like this.
This age. This height. This weight.
But It seems as if I'm 40. At 15.
I hate too think about the future.
It gives me bad visions, Me with children is a horrible thought at this age..
I feel weird thinking about it.
I don't really know.
If I think too much I might faunt.
Soo Yeah Im done

Listen

Can anybody hear me?
Naw their all ignoring.
What i say doesnt matter.
Im too young for an opinion.
They expect me to do good and be good.
But how? When I feel so ignored..

Ordinary girl (Miley Cyrus) Lol my version

I'm just a ordinary girl..
I have feelings..
thoughts,
moments,
crys,
I dont want to be ungrateful, I love who I am.
But sometimes
I'm lazy,
I get bored,
I get scared,
I feel ignored,
I feel happy,
I get silly,
I choke on my own words,
I make wishes,
I have dreams,
and I still want to believe Im just a ordinary girl..

Hear my heart

Sit still..
Listen closely.
Just breathe steadily.
As he listens to my heart.
Lol. Okay I'm serious I gotta stop posting stuff I do.